Hello All,
I hope this finds you happy and well!
As of the middle of February, I am single. The first of March I moved to my own place. Since the car I was using for work was Mary's, I moved within walking distance of work. Its about a 15 min walk to work which isn't bad. I could use some extra exercise anyway. The first week living alone was hard, but I'm figuring things out and actually enjoying my own place. I was definitely ready for a place to call my own. Since moving back to Oregon in 2006, I rented rooms and then lived with Mary since 2009. I was to the point, that if I had to have another roommate, I'd go crazy.
Mary ended up following me and lives right next door but we are trying to work it out, neighbor wise. It is all about setting boundaries and knowing when I need to close the door and step into my own zone. This part is hard as I've always been the person to please not disappoint. Over the last few years I am learning more and more that it is ok to say no if I feel it is best for me.
I am still working as a transport officer though tomorrow I will be starting the process of looking for new work. I plan to go sit at Shari's and get a bite to eat and work on my resume. I would like to send it out to at least a few places tomorrow and then continue the process until I find something better. I would like a job that has consistent, stable hours. No more of this oncall 24/7, pager shit. I am still disappointed that the hours are so frustrating because I still like the work itself. Benefits would also be a plus. I am thinking about looking into hospital security or 911 Dispatcher work. I will still see what is out there and see what else I can find.
I am also a new aunt. This is my first time being an aunt so I'm pretty excited. My parents are looking into trying to get me out to Wisconsin to meet the baby. I am hoping it will work out. While there I will hopefully be able to meet up with one of my best friends, M. I haven't seen her since I moved back to Oregon, though we do Skype a lot. She is one of those friends that even if you don't talk for awhile, you can pick up right where you left off at.
I am so excited about my new life ahead of me. I feel ready for the changes that need to be made in order to better me, my life and the future. I know there may be set backs but they are only temporary. Like my aunt told me recently, "you have to fix the mistakes from you past before you can move to far forward." I don't think that was the exact wording but that was pretty much what she meant. Hopefully I will be able to update this more often too as I've been kind of slacking.
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Monday, January 2, 2012
2012 Is Finally Here...
Hi All,
So I am glad that 2011 is finally over with. I am hoping that with the new year things can start to finally look up. Even if it is in my own perspective.
I don't really have a lot to update on. New Year's eve I had a couple of transports but made it home in time to watch the ball drop with Mary at midnight. Other then that not much happened.
I am enjoying the work of my job though the hours really suck. I am definitely going to have to start looking for new work. I can not survive on 49, 56 or so hours a paycheck. We get paid on the 1st and the 15th. I am frustrated that I have to find work because this is a job I actually like. I enjoy being on the road, transporting patients, instead of sitting behind a desk or doing some other mundane task. Each run is to somewhere different with a different patient (though we do have regulars), which mixes things up a bit. Its definitely not a boring job. But a person can't survive on that small number of hours in this economy.
Well that is the extent of my update for today. More to come later!
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
So I am glad that 2011 is finally over with. I am hoping that with the new year things can start to finally look up. Even if it is in my own perspective.
I don't really have a lot to update on. New Year's eve I had a couple of transports but made it home in time to watch the ball drop with Mary at midnight. Other then that not much happened.
I am enjoying the work of my job though the hours really suck. I am definitely going to have to start looking for new work. I can not survive on 49, 56 or so hours a paycheck. We get paid on the 1st and the 15th. I am frustrated that I have to find work because this is a job I actually like. I enjoy being on the road, transporting patients, instead of sitting behind a desk or doing some other mundane task. Each run is to somewhere different with a different patient (though we do have regulars), which mixes things up a bit. Its definitely not a boring job. But a person can't survive on that small number of hours in this economy.
Well that is the extent of my update for today. More to come later!
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Major Update!
Hello All,
Sorry it has been so long since I've updated. I've thought about it for awhile but kept putting it off. So here's what's been happening...
September 23rd, I graduated with my associates degree in Criminal Justice (CJ). I ended up receiving the National Honor Society for my class. I didn't even have honors, I was .02 away from a 3.5 GPA. I NEVER even thought about getting National Honor Society (NHS) as I never receive things like that. When they called my name it took me a split second to realize they were actually calling my name. My parents, 13yr old brother Jon and Grandma P came out from Wisconsin to see me graduate. I also had all my aunts and uncles and Grandma S who to see me graduate. It was nice to see everyone again. My parents gave me a stainless steel pot and pan set for my graduation gift.
September 27th I had an interview for a possible job. I got the job and now work as a transport officer. We transport mentally ill, inmates, juveniles, and dementia patients. I love the work but its hard because I am oncall 24/7. This makes it hard because I work all different hours of the day and I don't get a consistent amount of hours which makes things hard on my wallet too.
Those are the main updates for now. I've mainly been working and thats about it.
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Sorry it has been so long since I've updated. I've thought about it for awhile but kept putting it off. So here's what's been happening...
September 23rd, I graduated with my associates degree in Criminal Justice (CJ). I ended up receiving the National Honor Society for my class. I didn't even have honors, I was .02 away from a 3.5 GPA. I NEVER even thought about getting National Honor Society (NHS) as I never receive things like that. When they called my name it took me a split second to realize they were actually calling my name. My parents, 13yr old brother Jon and Grandma P came out from Wisconsin to see me graduate. I also had all my aunts and uncles and Grandma S who to see me graduate. It was nice to see everyone again. My parents gave me a stainless steel pot and pan set for my graduation gift.
September 27th I had an interview for a possible job. I got the job and now work as a transport officer. We transport mentally ill, inmates, juveniles, and dementia patients. I love the work but its hard because I am oncall 24/7. This makes it hard because I work all different hours of the day and I don't get a consistent amount of hours which makes things hard on my wallet too.
Those are the main updates for now. I've mainly been working and thats about it.
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Why I HATE Summer...
I hate summer because I hate the heat, humidity and don't even like the sun that much; but the big reason I hate summer is because of all the spiders that hang around. They are everywhere and it causes me great anxiety every time I go for a walk outside around trees or bushes.
Where I live there are this spiders (that are not real big, but still creepy) that make their webs from the tree branches down to the ground. You can't always see the web until you are walking into it. Whenever I go outside I feel like webs get all over me. Since I have a dog who needs periodic potty breaks I have to go outside. I usually end up having to walk him by bushes and trees at some point if I want to take him to a grassy area.
This morning I took Wyatt out one last time before I left to head to the school. One tree branch had at least three of these hanging spiderwebs with spiders in the center. I know I walked through a part of one and felt creeped out because of it. Then I went up our stairs to get into our apartment and went to open the door and this huge spider jumped from the ceiling above, outside the door. Luckily I saw it out of the corner of my eye and pulled back. It was a big brown or black spider (it blended with the carpet). I stepped on the nasty thing (to put it nicely). Then I was just completely and utterly disgusted and my anxiety really went up. Usually when I get a spider on me I have to go take a shower to get rid of the anxiety. I couldn't do that today because I had to get going so I could get out to the school to work on stuff. Walking to the bus I felt anxious the whole time. Now I've calmed down for the most part but still feel it a little bit.
So now you know why I hate summers. Why I LOVE the fall and spring time and actually don't mind winter in Oregon (where its not below zero weather).
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Where I live there are this spiders (that are not real big, but still creepy) that make their webs from the tree branches down to the ground. You can't always see the web until you are walking into it. Whenever I go outside I feel like webs get all over me. Since I have a dog who needs periodic potty breaks I have to go outside. I usually end up having to walk him by bushes and trees at some point if I want to take him to a grassy area.
This morning I took Wyatt out one last time before I left to head to the school. One tree branch had at least three of these hanging spiderwebs with spiders in the center. I know I walked through a part of one and felt creeped out because of it. Then I went up our stairs to get into our apartment and went to open the door and this huge spider jumped from the ceiling above, outside the door. Luckily I saw it out of the corner of my eye and pulled back. It was a big brown or black spider (it blended with the carpet). I stepped on the nasty thing (to put it nicely). Then I was just completely and utterly disgusted and my anxiety really went up. Usually when I get a spider on me I have to go take a shower to get rid of the anxiety. I couldn't do that today because I had to get going so I could get out to the school to work on stuff. Walking to the bus I felt anxious the whole time. Now I've calmed down for the most part but still feel it a little bit.
So now you know why I hate summers. Why I LOVE the fall and spring time and actually don't mind winter in Oregon (where its not below zero weather).
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Sunday, July 17, 2011
New Name...
So I have changed the name that comes up at the end of the posting. It was RaeAnn but is now Lady Aria. In portfolio class we have talked about how an employer can google your name and read your things on the internet. I'm not sure if I have changed it in all the places need so it doesn't come up but I didn't see it when I googled myself. I changed it to Lady Aria because its a name I was thinking about using for a pen name if I ever get some books published. So thought I would use it here too. I haven't decided if I will start signing my blogs Lady Aria, and might keep that as RaeAnn for now. Any thoughts on this?
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
What I Promised...
Hi All,
So last time I posted I said I would come back later and post a couple of things I had on my mind. So today I am finally able to do this. So here it goes...
The first thing on my mind is this....
I think I might have Adult ADD. I have been thinking about this for about a year or so. The symptoms seem to fit and if I do have it, it would explain my whole life. I have such a hard time in school, even now. Its hard for me to focus and I get distracted easily. I can't sit still. Its extremely hard for me to finish anything, and I can't make up my mind on what I want to do when I'm done with college. I graduate in September and I'm scared as hell. I've not talked to anyone about this extreme fear that I won't be able to find what I want to do with my life and make a good try at it. The reason I haven't told anyone is because 1) its embarrassing, and 2) I really don't have anyone to talk too, that would understand. Most of my friends who I would talk to will just try to tell me how to fix the problem instead of just listening to what I'm saying. Or they say, you will be fine. I hate hearing that because how do they know I will be fine? They don't know what's in store for me and I just feel like my feelings are invalidated when I am told that. I have one friend who I mostly email who lives in WI. I have told her the surface fear but not the deep dark fear inside of me which I don't know how to say out loud or even begin to explain. I actually have an appointment Tuesday to go talk to my doctor about this. I've been wanting to talk to her about this for awhile but was to afraid. In my psychology class, my teacher has ADHD and I can relate to a lot of things he talks about. We are also doing a project in psychology class and I'm doing mine on ADHD in hopes of possibly finding answers for myself. I'm not sure that I have the hyperactivity part, but it could be combined I'm not sure. I just want answers so that I can understand the way I feel.
The second thing on my mind is this...
Facebook. Is there really a point for it in my life? I have also been contemplating this for awhile. Then I read another blog of a woman who is taking a break from Facebook. And I wonder if I could do this also. http://astrangerinthisplace.blogspot.com/2011/07/taking-break-from-facebook.html I'm not sure if I could. I agree with what she talks about as far as stress being caused by Facebook. I also play Frontierville and am close to blocking that first just to see how it goes. I feel anxious thinking about the fact that I HAVE to go on my homestead everyday to finish quests or get rewards. One problem is that I am addicted to the game and I'm level 80 so feel like I have done A LOT of work to just throw it away. Another thought though is that between Mary and I we have six Facebook accounts just so we can play games on four of them. I could always play on one or more of these if I really needed a Frontierville fix. Right now I'm just sick of the game and how it takes up so much time. I'm tired of having to go through and accept all of the gifts from my gift box and off the wall, in order to finish quests. It takes up so much time and energy. Maybe its time to let it go. As far as Facebook itself I'm not sure. There are people I only keep in contact through there. Then there are people I have on there I NEVER talk too. Those people I don't think I need to have on there anymore. Then there are all the friends I have to play games. I don't really need any of these people if I get rid of Frontierville. I want to cut some people from my Facebook and only keep people I actually talk to on there. My thing is what if later I want to go back to Frontierville and then I have gotten rid of all those people? Then I have to find friends to play again. So how do I know if I making the right decision or not? I am hoping that maybe if I got rid of some of my distractions, maybe I would have time to read or do artsy stuff or other things I want to do that I am too distracted with other things to actually do. I want to try and weed distractions out of my life but I'm not sure how or where to start. I guess I am thinking if I start with Facebook, maybe I'll figure the rest out with time.
So those are the two things I promised to talk about. I think it has helped me to get it out. We'll see what happens.
Hope you are all enjoying the summer!
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
So last time I posted I said I would come back later and post a couple of things I had on my mind. So today I am finally able to do this. So here it goes...
The first thing on my mind is this....
I think I might have Adult ADD. I have been thinking about this for about a year or so. The symptoms seem to fit and if I do have it, it would explain my whole life. I have such a hard time in school, even now. Its hard for me to focus and I get distracted easily. I can't sit still. Its extremely hard for me to finish anything, and I can't make up my mind on what I want to do when I'm done with college. I graduate in September and I'm scared as hell. I've not talked to anyone about this extreme fear that I won't be able to find what I want to do with my life and make a good try at it. The reason I haven't told anyone is because 1) its embarrassing, and 2) I really don't have anyone to talk too, that would understand. Most of my friends who I would talk to will just try to tell me how to fix the problem instead of just listening to what I'm saying. Or they say, you will be fine. I hate hearing that because how do they know I will be fine? They don't know what's in store for me and I just feel like my feelings are invalidated when I am told that. I have one friend who I mostly email who lives in WI. I have told her the surface fear but not the deep dark fear inside of me which I don't know how to say out loud or even begin to explain. I actually have an appointment Tuesday to go talk to my doctor about this. I've been wanting to talk to her about this for awhile but was to afraid. In my psychology class, my teacher has ADHD and I can relate to a lot of things he talks about. We are also doing a project in psychology class and I'm doing mine on ADHD in hopes of possibly finding answers for myself. I'm not sure that I have the hyperactivity part, but it could be combined I'm not sure. I just want answers so that I can understand the way I feel.
The second thing on my mind is this...
Facebook. Is there really a point for it in my life? I have also been contemplating this for awhile. Then I read another blog of a woman who is taking a break from Facebook. And I wonder if I could do this also. http://astrangerinthisplace.blogspot.com/2011/07/taking-break-from-facebook.html I'm not sure if I could. I agree with what she talks about as far as stress being caused by Facebook. I also play Frontierville and am close to blocking that first just to see how it goes. I feel anxious thinking about the fact that I HAVE to go on my homestead everyday to finish quests or get rewards. One problem is that I am addicted to the game and I'm level 80 so feel like I have done A LOT of work to just throw it away. Another thought though is that between Mary and I we have six Facebook accounts just so we can play games on four of them. I could always play on one or more of these if I really needed a Frontierville fix. Right now I'm just sick of the game and how it takes up so much time. I'm tired of having to go through and accept all of the gifts from my gift box and off the wall, in order to finish quests. It takes up so much time and energy. Maybe its time to let it go. As far as Facebook itself I'm not sure. There are people I only keep in contact through there. Then there are people I have on there I NEVER talk too. Those people I don't think I need to have on there anymore. Then there are all the friends I have to play games. I don't really need any of these people if I get rid of Frontierville. I want to cut some people from my Facebook and only keep people I actually talk to on there. My thing is what if later I want to go back to Frontierville and then I have gotten rid of all those people? Then I have to find friends to play again. So how do I know if I making the right decision or not? I am hoping that maybe if I got rid of some of my distractions, maybe I would have time to read or do artsy stuff or other things I want to do that I am too distracted with other things to actually do. I want to try and weed distractions out of my life but I'm not sure how or where to start. I guess I am thinking if I start with Facebook, maybe I'll figure the rest out with time.
So those are the two things I promised to talk about. I think it has helped me to get it out. We'll see what happens.
Hope you are all enjoying the summer!
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
Saturday, July 9, 2011
My Life's Updates...
Hello All,
So I have a few updates and thoughts to post here since I haven't written in so long. I'm not sure exactly where to start so I guess I will start with the good news and then write about my two things I'm working on in my life to hopefully manage my life better.
My good news is that I entered an essay scholarship for my school. It was a 2000 word essay about my education at my school and how it would impact society and my future career. The prize was $2000 to be used for tuition or living expenses. So I entered this contest and after much hard work got the essay up to 2005 words. We found out this week the winners and I didn't win the top prize but I did get an honorable mention for my essay. There were 17 participants. One top winner, about 5 honorable mentions and the rest recieved participant certificates. I may not have gotten the top prize but I was happy to recieve the honorable mention which is better then a certificate just for participating.
My other two things on the agenda will have to be posted about later becuase I have to go catch the bus as I lost track of time (again). LOL
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
So I have a few updates and thoughts to post here since I haven't written in so long. I'm not sure exactly where to start so I guess I will start with the good news and then write about my two things I'm working on in my life to hopefully manage my life better.
My good news is that I entered an essay scholarship for my school. It was a 2000 word essay about my education at my school and how it would impact society and my future career. The prize was $2000 to be used for tuition or living expenses. So I entered this contest and after much hard work got the essay up to 2005 words. We found out this week the winners and I didn't win the top prize but I did get an honorable mention for my essay. There were 17 participants. One top winner, about 5 honorable mentions and the rest recieved participant certificates. I may not have gotten the top prize but I was happy to recieve the honorable mention which is better then a certificate just for participating.
My other two things on the agenda will have to be posted about later becuase I have to go catch the bus as I lost track of time (again). LOL
Love & Peace
RaeAnn
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